DAY 3: Quite Tough. New Goals.

Well.. This day was a waste. I hate days like this. But, I don’t wish to change. I want to read. I want to do something productive every day. But, all I did today was wake up, fight with my bro and watched one episode of my current fav TV show.

NoFap Challenge:

Today, I had A LOT of URGES. Damnn.. I’ve got an urge even when I’m typing this. I think I need to overcome bellybutton fetish. I mean I get aroused even when I see a belly button anywhere. But, now that, I’m thinking about it. I think I was bored pretty much most of the day. I should probably meditate before going to sleep. I posted a question on r/noFap and I got pretty valid answers. Most of them recommended me – MEDITATION.

I’ve taken classes for Yoga and Meditation before. But, I gave up when I did it before looking my A-level results. I thought to myself religion, yoga and anything to do with are all fake.

Well.. I’m up for this challenge again. My bro taught me how to do basic breathing exercises this morning. God.. my nose block cleared instantly. But, I can’t do the other two breathing exercises which involves me humming like an idiot. Can’t control my laughter. 😀

New Challenge

Oh yes.. New Challenge. My new challenge is to come over the game addiction. From now on, I will be posting about my journey of overcoming game addiction.

Ever since I started playing really competitive games like League and Overwatch and Hearthstone, my academics have been getting poorer everyday. I mean.. . come on.. Straight As Student in GCSE to straight Cs. Come on. Although, fapping has also contributed this problem. I have to duly admit that Gaming has been a bigger factor than wanking. I used to play for hours and hours without even eating, taking shower and even without brushing my teeth.

Nearly all my friends have told me that I would do much better in academics hadn’t been so addicted to games.

I don’t know why. But, ever since my secondary school, my achievements have been scarce. I think seeing a victory screen after like 40 min (which I assume is a hard work) game gives me sense of victory every now and then. It is not like I’m good at video games.  I’m shit. Bronve V in League and Low Silver in Overwatch.

It has come to my realisation that these games have taken most of my time at uni. I’m addicted to these like never before. Ever since I started playing league, my memory has gone terribly bad. Back in the day, if I had amazing photographic memory. Now, I can’t even remember simple words like “Hoarder”.

So, I have decided to not play any games for the next two months like my noFap challenge. Let’s see how I do.

While writing this, I just discovered this beautiful pornstar I might be jerking off tonight if I wasn’t on the challenge(One of my friends liked her posts on Facebook). My urge has jumped from 10 to 100 now. Should meditate before going to sleep.

Changes:

Well… I’m not like a weirdo and rubbing my dick on the floor and look weird when my bro pops into the room. That didn’t happen.

NoFap has helped me realised all the mistakes that I’ve committing all my life. The mistakes which I thought are completely fine. Internet is so biased sometimes. All the research that says masturbation is completely fine is bullshit. It just encourages people like me to masturbate more as I truly believe in science.

This is the theory I got. The companies wants you to wank. That’s why they make researchers release all these papers on only benefits. Same with weed. I found this amazing picture on noFap top posts. THIS IS SO TRUE.  All part of advertising.

 

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NEW PERSONAL PROJECT?

I’m thinking of doing a personal project. I don’t know what exactly. But, I should definitely do something. It shouldn’t keep me bored. It has got to do with hacking and shit. Alright. Night. Gonna medidate.